what a great sleep last night

I went to bed at half eight to watch idol. Didnt see a thing. Was fast asleep literally seconds after going to bed and the girls slept in til 10 past seven this morning. Fantastic. Is pouring down here so cant really go walking bit unfair that the girls have sit in a pram and get wet. I really feel like a walk today as well. Never mind. And with that I have lots I want done today so am outta here.

back walking today

I still dont feel right but decided I needed to get back out there. I sweated like nobodys business and felt drained. But I did it. I have a new route now as it was getting too dark for the old one where there is no foothpath or lights. Its the same distance and takes the same time to do and still has an incline as well. ALL GOOD.

I jumped on the scales when I first got up before I went loo and with pjs and I am not sure how seeingn as I havent put any effort in with being sick but it read 82.4kg. Was a bit shocked although very pleased!!

A loss is better then a gain even if its only 100grams its a loss. Well I keep telling myself this. If I say it often enough I might believe it!!.

well now the waiting

what is emilys lump. NO IDEA still. She was sent straight away for an skull xray which she cried for of course. I said as we were looking at the xray is it just bone and the reply was "umm errr weeeeeellll theres some bone there but we need the specialist to look at it now. Will you be home if we need to ring you to come back" hmm yes but what does that mean? Anyway decided will send emmy to kindy if they want us I will go pick her up. The lump protudes 1cm by 1cm and is pefectly round. Hes confident its notj ust the way her skull is growing or it would be on both sides. Is that good or bad I dont konw either. He did say I wonder if something is pushing it from the inside to go like that. HMM dont like the sound of that!!!. So now I wait.

still no walk

this morning. So much for night adn day tablets making you feel better. Still blocked up, coughing now and HOT. arrgghhhh just what I need at this stage. Am not expecting a weight loss this week will be impossible i havent done the hard work. I could do without Emily's appointment but I waited near on 8 months for it so will be there no matter how bad I am feeling.
The girls were stuffed yesterday and had an early night. So I thought great I will sleep on the couch before shorty street. ahh if only. First the cat put it claws up the wallpaper and starting shredding so I threw it outside, then the phone rang, then a stupid friggen fly kept landing on me. I tell you I was so tired and grumpy by that stage that I lost the plot a bit. And then finally I got a small snooze in and woke up groggy as you do.
We went to bed last night and some IDIOT faxed us at half ten last night. It was a research company. Sorry but to be faxing at that hour of the night is rude especially when the fax is IN MY BEDROOM. So this morning I faxed that company back telling them what I thought!!!

Right I have some washign to hang out, the breakfast dishes to clear up and I am done. Drop livi at kindy come home feed emmy before we go, mum is picking up livi from kindy so at least I wont have to worry if this apointment goes on for abit. I suspect though it will be all of five mins with a I will refer you on. As that seems to be standard practice at the hosptial let me write a referral to this department for you. Guess time will tell.

Oh I washed y hair and managed to do it pretty stylie this morning lol.

the hospital rang Emily finally has an appointment

to look further at the lump on her head. Tomorrow at 10:40am. Hurray. About time. And its with the pead who according to my nurse sis in law the best there is. So yay. Lets see what he makes of her strange lump. Hopefully he makes nothing of it and its just a strange way her skull has developed.

I have manflu I think

The goold old thumping head, mega sore throat and blocked up nose. Yesterday I didnt go walking as I was just so tired and felt under the weather. Last night it hit. I can hardly swallow and just want to curl up and sleep as sleeping is next to impossible with a blocked nose. But I cant. I have two little girls who are up and about so sleeping is not an option.

Livi has a kindy trip today and she is so excited. right now i am so glad that I am not a parent helper its the last thing I would want to do!!!

I am still loving my hair. now thats a rareity normally the next day I am like what the hell have I done. But not this time.

right the screen hurts my head so I am going to go and shower and hope a shower clears my head a bit. Emmy is a tad grumpy so wonder if she is getting it.

photo doesnt do justice but

Please excuse those sagging boobs. The photo doesnt show the layers and slight fringe. But anwya thats my new haircut

WHEW

I always feel relieved when those scales go DOWN. Thank goodness. I didnt walk yesterday but I did skip. Man skipping is really hard work.

Anyway nothing to say today just thrilled those scales are GOING DOWN

I FIXED IT

The time has been bugggin me on here. Being in american time. NOW ITS NOT. Just thought I would share that useless piece of info.

oh LISA are you pregnant???

I shall be forced to start a rumour you do realize???? I will email you later anyway. Actually can you email me with your phone number as I stored it on the old computer and it went AWOL. Although I did get the dinosaur cranked up last up night only took 5 attempts and I got cross and threw it on the floor and IT WENT!! am just thinking It might be time for it to become a play toy for the girls.

I really want and will probably have a creme egg. God I love creme eggs. Just one. Well all the washing but the towels are done and hanging out. The towels are washing now. The girls had a bath and hair wash and something really amazing happened. THEY DIDNT CRY. I showered and dressed. But yeah the creme egg is calling me. "liz liz come and get me" I can hear it.

So Lisa when is the new baby due??? Your mad by the way totally mad!!!!. I know you are just trying to do a brad and angelina but instead of a baby from any country you are just doing babies being BORN in different countries BUT I think you should come home for this baby and have it here!! Dont worry about Mat I can be your birthing partner.

Tyring to decide whether a rest day is a good idea

My muscles are sore and tired adn I know I give them a day off. But why do I feel like I am quitting if I do ONE rest day. Its stupid I know. And one day is not going to make a difference in the grand scheme of things. I AM going to have ONE rest day.

Although I might skip later tonight.

I decided to get cracking this morning and by 7am I had one load of sheets on the line, all the beds changed with fresh clean linen and second load of sheets on washing. And there are suss looking black clouds out there. GO AWAY I have decided all sheets and towels are getting washed today and they must dry.

Yesterday I ended up doign my hours walk, another 40 min walk as we walked to get our non winning lotto ticket and then 20 mins of skipping. The girls wanted to skip to so I had to find something for my skipping rope. I found a length of electrical wire in the shed it actually worked very well. Was the correct length that made skipping so much easier then a kids rop that is too short!!. Only thing was it hurt when it flicked you!! My archilles are still feeling the skipping the most. I figured that they are weak from years of no exercise. Who knows if I am right or wrong.

Graeme is working 7 days a week right now there is just so much work. I shant complain the money is much needed after a $300 bill on my car as the air con packed up, and a $600 on the motorhome. The motorhome needed some thing cant remember what. Actually have paid most of the motorhom bill. But still it annoyed me that $600 that we could have saved.

I find the eating side quite easy now. I still really crave salt n vinegar chips so I either factor them in or just say tough you arent having them. I actually feel full again when I eat now. So I must have gotten used to these small portions of food now. I tend to eat pretty much the same food over and over. But that doesnt bother me. It probably lacks in some areas but I dont really care its working for me right now. And its gotta be better then what I was doing!! I have shaved around $50 a week off our groceries by not buying chippies, chocolate, buns, biscuits, etc etc. So this has had that benefit too.

The garden is keeping us well stocked in brocolli, tomatoes, celery and cucumbers. I have cucumbers coming out my ears lol. But thats all good. We are revamping the garden so not replanting right now. Instead goign to build up planter boxes for the vegies high off the ground and get really good soil for them. Our soil isnt up to par. We are going to plant lots more beans and peas as well. and less lettuce. Oh my carrots are growing too and we are eating them as well.

And I think that is me. A walk is calling me even though I meant to be having a day off from it. It doesnt feel right to be here when I could be walking.

Right today is the start of a new me

new attitude to things and new way of life. Mainly its still centred around weight loss and getting fit. But there are new bits personal to me that shall stay that way. For now.

I havent missed a day walking yet and can only hope those scales are DOWN on Monday. Skipping is harder then I thought lol. My legs ache but I know I have to keep goign now. And I will. I am so determined that I can achieve all this that I can not make any excuses nor allow any excuses to be adopted by me.

Well I decided to weigh in this morning

even though mondays are my weigh in day. 82.8kg. heehee thats more like!!!!.
I have added skipping into my exercise routine. Its meant to be the most effective and fatest way to lose fat and tone up. Half an hour continous skippping is my aim. Last night I managed 20 mins and boy am I unco lots of tripping over the rope and having to start again. But they heart rate was up the puffing was huge and sweat was dripping so clearly the body was indeed working!! I thought today I would have sore calf's but only one sore archilles am quite surprised.
I have discovered a way to sneak points out of my diet lol. having my ceral for example with hot water ad not milk and I get an extra 2 -3 points a day to spend on other food. It really is being wise with what food you put in your body. Mywalking gives me an extra 4 points per day I can eat and the skipping an extra 3. But I am trying to look at those as just that extras that dont need useing up BUT if for example we decided to go out for fish n chips at the beach I have enough extra points up my sleeve to have a few hot chips. I often walk to kindy once to drop livi off, once to pick her up, once to drop emmy off and once to pick her up so its only 10 mins there and back but thats an extra 40 mins sneaked in if you add it all up. And I really think that that is the key exercise exercise and more exercise.

Well come this time next year i will have damn hot and sexy legs from all this skipping. So am hoping I look like a goddess on the beach when we do our big two week christmas trip away. One can only hope anyway lol. Of course thte godess image will all be ruined when they look at my face and then the two kids in tow. I somehow dont think godess's have two kids and a husband with them haahaa.

today I have on my pink (I love pink) three quarter glassons pants. Now I havent been able to do them up for one year. They are a size 14. They are a tad tight however as they create muffin overhang but I have along black singlet top of that hides that muffin spilling over. AND THATS NOT THE POINTZ they are size 14 thats the point lol.

All my size 18s are now getting too big. I have to wear a belt with my jeans and they bag around the legs and bum. So something is working as size 18 was starting to get a tad small on me.

Right I should go and hang out my washing and brush my teeth and we are ready to mossey on to kindy for the 1st of four trips there today.

I dont get it I am so angry with myself

Last week I lost 600grams and had a bad week. This week I was really good walked every single day, ate my points allowance ad have put on 400grams. HOW HOW HOW. I am clutching at straws as my scales also measure body fat and it has dropped 1% this week so I keeep telling myself its either muscle gain which is always heavier than fat or I am in ovulation week and google tells me you can put on up to 2kg around ovulation day. I am clutching desperately I know reality is I just didnt do enough. I didnt work hard enough. I have only myself to blame. And with that I am shitty with myself so am going to go hang out washing.

Still here

still trucking along. I am finding it easier and easier. I love getting out walking now. Really look forward to it. the eater is getting easier and easier. Maybe I am adjusting to this. I really feel I can do this. 20kg just seem so so so far away. Yes I have little goals in between and I just keep thinking of saying yes I have lost 20kg and how good that will feel.
Lisa are you ever going to update Emma and Ethans webpage??
I dont really have much to say today.

thought I would share some pics from our weekend

The girls being silly in the motorhome one morning. Total clowns.

Playing in a rock pool one morning. This is a huge leap for them. In the past they have been petrified goign past these pools and we have had tears and tantrums. This it was tears when made to get out!!

And finally my view of Graeme and the girls on the beach on Sunday morning out the back of the motorhome. I was doing dishes they were playing. It was stunning weather all weekend. Just gorgeous. If only now we could win enoughmoney to be mortgage free get the next motorhome and just drive off worry free whenever it takes our fancy. Dreams are free I guess.

Thought I would weigh in and Measure today

83.2kg YAY not much but YAY all the same

Calf: 43cm was 43.5
Thigh: 63.5cm was 64cm
Hips: 103.5 was 105cm
Waist 85cm was 88.5cm
Bust: 99cm was 101 cm
Upper arm: 34cm was 36cm.

So that speaks for itself I am getting smaller!!!!

I am so stoked to have lost this week I wasnt expecting to. I had macoroni cheese one night for dinner, plus while away this weekend some pizza, garlic bread and hash browns. So yes I am happy with the small weight loss. And Now I am off to shower.

It was really warm this morning

out walking. The girls didnt even have a blanket on like normal. Along the way where I walk is a POP stop which is where members of the nz motorcaravan association can park up in the motorhomes in and caravans. This mornign there were 8 motorhomes parked there. I was so jealous. Wish we were away parked up somewhere in ours!!

I got to kindy yesterday morning and discovered I was working for 2 hours. All good. Emmy lasted well but slept 4 hours when we got home. Today she is all fine and dandy eaten breakfast, talking, playing so I guess hse is feeling back to normal. Poor old Livi has a sty that in infected so will pick up her drops and meds this mroning. She can still go to kindy though so thats all good.

I cant wait for Mondays now as I want to see those scale going down its such a thrill. And gives me such a rush.

Other than that nothing is really new. Long weekend this weekend and I am working thursday at kindy. We might pop out hte beach or something I guess. Looked at where we can go but nothing jumps out at us. I would like to find somewhere with gorgeous hot pools. Actually there is somewhere like that going to Wairoa.

Friends bought a new table and chair outdoor set and were going to sell their old one on trademe til I sad hang on we will take it!. So we have a new table with 6 matching chairs and 2 matching rocking chairs. Its great. Much better then the stupid kwilia table I had.

All in all that is me.

WEIGH IN

83.8kg YES YES YES. It is paying off. It is working. And I FEEL GREAT TODAY. THats all I have to say Emmy still sick but is happy enough while sittingin the pram so I can still walk. wooohoooo