Been slack at writing in here

But I am here all the same. Still solidering on. Although I have a tummy bug of some sort right now so notmuch to say really. Feel much better now then yesterday but still not great.

Went and checked outa beach to stay at over easter yesterday and not suitable at all sadly. Where you can camp is right on a gravel road so concern was too close to road for kids and the dust that would cover us. Plus we were worried about a group who are parked up there. They have their maori activitist group flag flying plus were patched up mob members so thought maybe not the wisest place to go!

Will just hang out at our fav local beach instead.

Dont you love it when

A pair of jeans goes from cant get over thighs, to can do up if I breathe in, to can do up with ease fit nicely to GETTING TOO BIG. Thats the pair of jeans I have on today. Its such a buzz.

I have a sore throat and groggy head today. GRRRR.

The peppermint tea is growing on me. I dont mind it now. OH MY GOD LISA I am getting a tea obbession like you. Think how many cups will be brewed when you are here in May. For those who dont know Lisa is the faithful LittleMrs and we meet way back at the very beginning of highschool. She abandoned me for america and now austrailia but is coming home for a holiday in May. She just waltzes in my house pops the jug on and makes endless cups of tea. Her poor mother the first time she came with her was like Lisa thats rude Lisa is like nah mum this is home lol. Its great shes a guest who doesnt need waiting on she just gets what she wants. WORKS WELL lol.

Anyway I have a plunket meeting this morning and lots and lots of marking that I dont feel like doing but HAVE to do.

OVERWEIGHT HERE I AM

Obese you are a thing of the PAST. Overweight still isnt desirable BUT its better then Obese. We had a roast chicken for dinner last night and I went overboard on roast spuds and cheese sauce. Infact I am surprised I lost weight the whole week wasnt the best. I need to really get back into things. I have accepted that its now too dark and chilly for the girls to go walking for an hour in the mornings. And for a while will just work on doing this without exercise. I am quitting milo and going for peppermint tea instead. It tastes like overchewed PK chewing gum but its calorie free and meant to be really good for digestion, and aids weightloss. So Ifigure that will cut 6 points out of my food intake during the day. So should make up for not exercising.

I weighed in this morning

just cause I can after breakie, and with pjs on. 79.5kg so i hope like hell it was right cause cause that means I am no longer obese just overweight!!!!!!! and and under 80kg finally!!! and and only 2kg heavier then when i got preggie with livi.

Am still here

Not exercising as it doesnt get light enough fast enough in the mornings. And then I just dont get around to it. Yes I know bad. And my eating hasnt been the best either. GRRRRRR. It hasnt been totallly bad eihter but not as good as it could.

its 6:15am

and I have made the beds, opened the curtains, got us ready, livis playlunch made, and looked outside into the dark morning and realized we wont be walking its raining.

heres my first side on pic to compare

OH MY GOD i can actually see a difference.

Here I am at 80kg

I have on a size 14 pair of jeans. So they arent little but I am getting there.

Nearly acheived my first major goal

My first goal was to leave the BMI of obese behind. My BMI today is 30.1 which is still obese. But 29.9 is overweight so I am soooooo close. So close yet so far. It used to be 32.4 so I have come a long way. Well ok not really but i have lol. I know what I mean. My first major goal was also to get under 80kg. So to weigh in at 80.0kg sucks. Couldnt it have been 79.9kg thats so much better then 80.0kg. 6.1kg gone off my body. I still cant quite believe it. I have on a pair of jeans today and for the first time in a very long I dont feel like a huge blimp. I still fat yes but decent. What sucks though is Graeme was 83.3kg when I started this. And he the sucky thing is now 77.5kg. HE SUCKS. Hes not even trying and eating alll sorts of shit. How does that work?
*sigh*. Well I had better go and get the washing out, and off to kindy for Livi. I have a meeting with a representative from the Eastern and Central Community Trust Board at 9am as we have applied for 6k funding to put in decent heating and air con into the kindergarten. At the moment the heating is very substandard and we HAVE to upgrade. However with also having to buy lots of equipment and having to upgrade the outdoors area we are short of funds. Very short. But hopefully the ducky fundraiser will raise around 5k and we get the 6k that will help immensley.

This is not a day we like in our family

March 16th 1995 this time Andrew was still here. Still talking, walking and ALIVE. At 8pm tonight he was killed. We didnt find out til 3am when the police rang up. Its also my uncles birthday today. I cant believe it has been so long. 14 years since we saw him last.

wow I lost weight and Emmy dry once again overnight

Its a good day!! I have been walking already. Kids are dressed just doing breakfast. I clearly now when I am bad am nowhere near as bad as I used to be!! As those scales went DOWN.

And miss Emily kept her pjs dry once again. Oh please let this be the end of nappies in this house!!! Right I am starving going to eat

so much for getting back on the wagon

TOMORROW and this time I mean it. The scales will scare me back on track!! I am expecting another gain. Bloody stupid of me to waste all the work I had done. And I have no one to blame but myself.

DRY ALL NIGHT

YAY go Emily. And Livi is super happy as I managed to find her a strawberry shortcake tracksuit. I would be happy IF I had got a sleep in. But NO I didnt.

The girls have NEW PJS on

and of course they choose matching ones once again. So i have to check tags to get the right kid in the right ones. There were lots to choose couldnt they have choosen different ones? Miss Emily Bear has gone to bed without her pull up on. Promising me she wont wet the bed. She has had a dry pull up now for at least 2 months but always the night you take off the pull up she wets. So we have a bribery of new pjs in 3 days IF you keep the pjs all dry all night.

We went out this afternoon. I did the groceries and discovered little rice crisps which my girls love so bought them instead of chippies. I hate them so no temptation to eat them. YAY. We went to Bunnings to look at a storage system for the play room but it wasnt right. Went to mega 10 the girls played for ages in the playground while Graeme munkled at the crap for ages. I of course actualy stayed to watch my children playing. YEP thats right you can assume from that some parents bung their kid in there and leave them alone while they go shopping. I am quite laid back BUT first of all small children in confined playground is asking for a scrap of some sort, plus how easy it would be to just walk off with some kid. Oh well I guess it would be harsh lesson for a parent and a terrible tradegy for the child IF that were to happen. THere was a competition on for under 6's of fishing a duckie out of the spa pool with a net and get a prize. Livi was great at it poor old Emily couldnt see over the edge so Graeme had to help but eventually they got a ducky and she got her prize. Home and I slept. OH what bliss. I woke up at nearly 5 to the girls with their ironing boards out ironing their new pjs ready for bed lol.

They have jsut gone off to bed all shitty cause it finally dawned on them half well lets be honest 96% of their friends are no longer on their beds. I did relent and let them have their monsters back. Honestly why does a kid WANT to sleep with an ugly monster lol. Its all quiet so I assume They are aasleep. Or else Emily is discovering bottom freedom with no pullup on!!.

LEt you know tomorrow how it goes.

mum left a diet coke here

i am drinking it YUCK I just dont like coke but am still drinking it.

Been on a mission this morning. Changed all the sheets and duvet covers on every bed, took all the girls stuffed toys bar their favourite they were allowed to choose 6 each and put them in a very high up cupboard.
Last time i did this they after I thought they were asleep got them all out again well they cant this time!!!
looks much better in their room now. You can actually see the bed and gorgeous duvet cover!!!

I cleaned toilet, bathroom, kitchen, dining, lounge,playroom and dusted and then vacuumed. Looks much better.

And I need to do groceries YUCK havent been for two weeks though so dont have a choice now.

Its too cold in the mornings now

Bring back summer PLEASE. *sigh*. With it being cold I just dont go walking so I need to pull finger and get walking. I am lapsing a bit on food too. Nothing major but certainly not as good as I was thats for sure. So I have a huge wagon to get back on if I want to be skinny by next summer. No more stuffing around it is just wasting time.

EMILYS RESULTS ARE IN

and its pretty good. Well its better then the worst thats for sure lol. It is NOT bone. Now ideally it would have been but its not. Its either a cyst or a tumour but they think either way its not life threatning but they do want a scan and a treatment plan drawn up. So while it could have some yuckies in the treatment overall ITS OK. This is so much better then not knowing.

ITS COLD TODAY

the girls have thermols on!!. Bit of a shock to the system. Bring back those 35 degree days thanks. I hate the cold. Am now walking whenever its too cold for them sitting in the pram first thing in the morning and not fair when you are just sitting there doing nothing.

May even pull out the cross trainer again and exercise at home.

I weighed yeah yeah i know monday is weigh in and I was 80.4kg. heeheheehee. I am happy. Right lots to do I am off.

Its far too early for this!!

Those children of mine have the wiggles cd blasting and I mean blasting and dancing around the lounge. Far far too early for this. Livi is in love with her pumpkin patch tracksuit. I dont do tracksuits but that child does. So she has that on and of course it has made her extra silly. She keeps goign to the window where she can see her reflection and sticking her butt out and posing in it. Tracksuits are such hideous things but now she claims she wants all tracksuits for kindy for winter andof course miss 2 is chiming in with that. Miss 2 is actually getting a strawberry shortcake tracksuit so that will please her. UURRGGGHHH tracksuits so hideous

its so dark in the mornings

god when is daylight savings ending. I need light again. Its very hard to get motivated to go walking in the dark!!. Its chilly now too. I put the rain cover over the girls this morning that way it keeps the chilly air off them. Oh to be sitting ina pram getting pushed. I have an hours work tomorrow morning. I am getting lots this month. I only want one day a month and I am happy so far I have done two days already and another one of friday. I am going to the pumpkin patch outlet store for kindy clothes and winter clothes beginning of next month. I looked in farmers and its dearer then the outlet store!!!
Anyway I have washing to hang out, teeth to brush, morning tea for livi to make and off to kindy.

See told ya I celebrated a bit too much!!

Icecream, mars bars, chippies macoroni cheese all bad things. Not too bothered as I thought a 2kg loss the week before was too much!!. Nothing to say really. DOwnwards we go back on track now

Lots to say now!!

First thing first the important thing. I have on a baby pink with white flowers size 12 skirt. YES THATS RIGHT SIZE 12. Ok ok its from pagani so we know thats more like a large 14 or small 16 but hey the label says size 12. I bought this just after I had livi wore it once and then outgrew it. So very exciting. I feel very girly and feminine today. And Livi said I was beautiful Princess mummy. So what she says goes today lol.

Second important thing, My stupid hideously expensive electrolux vacuum cleaner just wont go. Now lots of people woud be thrilled their cleaner wont go but not me. I am devestated, angry, pissed off and annoyed to say the least. The house is all cleaned up but the floors and it so shows. I vacuum every day and I am NOT happy.

So I bought myself a mars bar. And ate it. So lunch will be a some cruskits and thatgs it. I can fit it in if I skimp at lunch today. So as I have already eaten it skimp I must. *sigh*. Now I think I will email Electrolux and let them know just how disappointing this cleaner has been. I have had it 2 years now. And honestly for near on 1k it has been the biggest lemon out there. How on earth it won consumers best vacuum cleaner thing they do is quite beyond me.

ahhhh its 8:15am on a Sunday morning

our walk is done breakfast is done. Graeme is working til lunchtime then we are off to farmers as they have Dora duvets 30% off and it would appear the girls would like a dora duvet on their bed.
Might wash and flea the dog too shes due for her flea stuff on thursday so might get it over and done with.
And its time to start buying winter clothes for the girls. I am going to hav ea huge chuck out of their wardrobes soon. And start again. the odd thing I will keep the rest is going.

And thats all I have to say today.

What a day!!!!

Miss Emily was the grumpiest thing you can imagine. So at 7:30am I shut all the curtains turned off the telly and we all went back to my bed and no the grump did not sleep. Finally at 9am after tears, tantrums, screaming etc etc we got up again. Got the grump dressed that was a mission and finally at half ten after food and toilet stops and a quick clean up Grump and Livi climbed in the pram and we went walking. I am pleased to say Grump was asleep all of 30 seconds down the road and slept the whole walk. So many people said "oh isnt she sweet" hmmm no actually she isnt at the moment shes a damn Grump. She woke up in a much more pleasant mood thank god cause otherwise she might have found herself at the front gate witha FREE sign on her. We mucked around for the day then when Graeme got home we decided to go play at a playground. Now I had the bright idea of playing at Te Mata (tomato) School where the girls will go to school. So at 4pm we went. Me pushing LAZY LIVI in the pram and the Grump (who was actually very ungrumpy by this time) on her bike. Now the Grump is a drunk on her bike. She weaves over the whole footpath, runs your get over, rams the side of the pram and cant understand why everyone was saying look where you are going. Luckily the school is only two mins walk!!!. What a great playground. They had a ball. At 5.15 there was a horrid rumble of thunder. So the Grump was shooed on her bike and Graeme put the push bar on it and Livi the Lazy Layabout stretched out in the pram. And we came home just in time for lightning, thunder and rain. We had an easy tea of spaghetti on toast with chocolate icecream for dessert. I didnt of course have any of that that doesnt fit the diet. Grump and Lazy had a huge bubble bath made a huge mess had a milo and went to bed!!. I hope the Grump wakes tomorrow in a far more pleasant mood then she did this morning. I did ask Grump why she was so horrid and grizzley I shouldnt have bothered I got two little hands either side of my face squeezing it and a VERY Grumpy voice said "I am not grumpy you Mean Old Troll I am tired. Dora kept me up all night". hmmmm ok Grump if you say so.

hmm

each week after my period I put on weight!!. Lol or the week I weigh in with my period it is false. One or the other haahaa. So Monday is weigh in day and I will have put on weight. I know this because I have been slack. I really need to pull finger out again and get tough on it again. Which from today is what I am doing. I spent nearly a week being all happy and smug about how much I had lost so far I kinda kept on celebrating with too much food. Silly me cause I just wasted a week really. Right aas of today Back on the wagon.

I worked Thursday and Friday so that was good. And i have work next Friday as well.

The girls went to bed late last night and woke up extra early of course. So maybe tomorrow they might be ready to catch up and sleep in. Am thinking of taking them to the hot pools to swim today. Will see what the day is like once it gets light and we go walking and stuff.

well that was sad

Not one bill left to be paid in this house. But the bank account looks very sad now. OH well nothing will come in again now til April. So I guess thats something. No one can come knocking on my door saying you owe me money. *sigh* please let the never ending bills come in.

Have decided will go walking

after livi is at kindy. It is just too dark in the mornings and we end up getting home and having to rush around like mad ducks. So after kindy it will be when it it light again. But today will be after lunch as I have lots of horrid bills to pay this morning. Car rego grrrr, two warrants that have been done and now the bill is in, just paid the accountant lol. Dont you hate bill day. Oh phone, rates and wheelie bin too. *sigh* So much for saving so far things has come up that just have to be done. Very annyoing.
With that I am off to shower, go bank, go kindy, go post office, go supermarket. I have work tomorrow and friday so better have food in the house fr my mother to feed the kids with lol.

not the best pic but one all the same

hmmm and there we have one picture 5.5kg down from the start of this journey.

I should really do new photos

might do it when Graeme pops home soon. Get him to take a piccy. So we are off at Easter. Thought seeing as he is working 7 days right now we woudl take thursday off and go Wednesday afternoon sometime. So that will be Wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun and home monday. That shoudl be a good break. We were going to Mahia Penisular but you cant freedome camp there so are rethinking things. We have the whole of the north island and cant find anywhere the interests us lol. Well we dont want to go as far as corromandal even though there are loads of places there that interest us or to Auckland. Would love to go New Plymouth way but again its such a long way we decided you waste TWO days travelling so will save that for another time.
So where can we go??? post your ideas to me. Cause we have looked at the maps and draw a blank time after time. We did think Cape Pallicer however its very remote and thought that might be a safer one to do with someone else. So I am going to google my way through what places are putting on any easter festivals or something.
The motorhome association is doing a massive easter rally way way way up north probably take two days to get there so we decided thats not an option for us plus we didnt realy think a rally with 60+ year old and around 500 motorhomes is really us. Cant really see us fitting in the paper hat competition or line dancing heehee.
Had the worst sleep in history last night *glares at children*. We cut off the weetbix free water bottle voucher and went and got them yesterday. Those girls drunk that much water they both woke up twice to go toilet. Of course not at the same time so in all 4 seperate times I was woken to take children toilet.
I actually can notice soem weight loss I think. I dont look pregnant anymore. Lisa I must say I am totally looking forward to hearing you cant fit your pants anymore while I can yell and scream I FIT MINE heehee evil I know. For those who dont know Lisa shes kind of turn sideways behind a pole you wont see her skinny. And ook so shes going to outgrow her pants because shes having baby number 3 but thats not the point. She shall get big while I get small thats the point!!! I might for the first time ever be smaller then her heeheeheee. Even if it is only for a short while. So Lisa feel free in this pregnancy to put on 30kg I DONT MIND AT ALL!!!.

Right time to find a holiday spot.

5.5kg GONE GONE GONE

i am 1/4 of hte way to 20kgs. I HAVE LOST 5.5KG. OH MY GOD. I cant quite believe it. I was so excited I raced through the shower and into the wardrobe. First stop my favourite $350 size 14 stripey fine cord jeans. THEY FIT THEY FIT. They are funky and out there and I hardly got to wear them as I got fat. BUT THEY FIT. Ok I need a baggy top as they create muffin top but stuff that I c an actually get them on and they fit. Its been 4 years since they fit. Then I got out my pre pregnant Olivia jeans and again creat muffin top but I CAN DO THEM UP. I havent been able to do them up let alone past my thighs since she was born!!!!. OH MY GOD. NExt step was my expensive three quarter nike pants. THEY FIT THEY FIT. Ok probably are a tad tight in the butt but who cares they can get on me they will do and I am wearing them today. Thank god I didnt throw out all my pre children wardrobe as some of it is expensive and I still like it. Slowly it will all fit again.

I started a new walk today. We decided Graeme and I that walking on a semi rural road with no lights or foothpath is now not a safe option seeing as its so dark in the mornings. So I now stick to foothpaths and lit up areas. It takes the same time and still has an incline so I think is on par with the old course. Just no horses for the girls to look at thats all.

I dont know how I lost weight last week actually. I was sick, didnt walk, ate some easter eggs and maccy cheese one night. SO quite how is a mystery.

BUT WHO CARES 5.5kg IS GONE