Saturday, December 6, 2008

I am still here

Neither good nor bad. Probably inbetween.

Been walking though so that is great. Even been this morning already and its only 7am.

Last night while I was walking there were some intermediate aged brats out on the footpath who were imitating me and saying "fuck I am never gettng that fat". I dont know why I let it bother me but it did. I felt so embarrased and just wanted to melt into the foothpath. I know I was bright red as well I could just feel it. *sighs*.

Other than that I have eating ok not great but not bad. Just ok. Probably not good enough to lose weight but then not bad enough to put on. So I guess thats better then getting bigger.

Hmmm so reality of what I have just said is I am still not doing enough to downsize me. Why can't I just say right not eating and just damn well do it. It should be easy. Should be. But its not. I really don't get people who say losing weight is easy. Why isnt it easy for me or do they just say it is whne really its not. Who knows.

Right I have lots to do today so am outta here.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I am constantly astounded at how rude some people, old and young, can be. Little do they now that being a mother and the life changes that go along with it will reek havoc on their youthful figures. Gosh I just wish I was around to see to their reactions. You are doing great and I admire your determination. Its whats keeping me going as I seem to gain instead of lose :(